In Search of A Good Home

I have been working on trying to find a church home. I have been going to different churches in the last few weeks. The people have been really nice and the messages have been meaningful. But I just have not felt those strong connections like I did to my church in Asheville. I know it will take time but still... On the plus side, I have met a lot of wonderful people who I hope will stay great friends, regardless where my church journey ends up.

But I can't help but feel like I have been a mooch to those I have met so far, especially to everyone at 1.21 Church. But it has never been my intention. Everyone has been so wonderful with giving me rides and allowing me to hang out and get to know them. Again, I hope that everyone will become and remain great friends. They have filled a part of me that has been missing since I came back to Winston-Salem. In the short time that I have known them, I have seen the type of relationships with God that I want. They have been strong examples of Christian love and the marriage I would like to have with my future husband. But most of all, they have shown me that God can use you, no matter your age or your place in life. No one in the pastoral staff has reached 30 but they are such men of God and they are starting a church. But still there is something inside that is not sure if this is where God really wants me to be. As I have been writing this, I thought of Philippians 1:3-6. I truly thank God for bringing these people into my life, and I pray that they will still be a part of it whether I continue to worship with them or not.

I know that this may not make much sense. My thoughts have been all over the place on this. But as I am writing this, I remember something that Joyce Meyer said in one of her messages this week. She was talking about taking/causing offence. Basically, she said that we need to stop worry about what people think and start focusing on what God thinks and wants. It is something that is hard for me because I am such a people pleaser by nature. I think I have gotten better as I have gotten older but it is still hard for me to not feel guilty anytime I tell someone no, regardless of what it is. I ultimately have to do what I feel like God wants me to do. Not just where I go to church but what He wants me to do with my life.

Again, sorry if this is not very clear. But I feel better getting it out.